I''m not reading any blogs these days. I open Bloglines and say "Holy shit, there's no way I can read all those posts," and I shut it down again, totally overwhelmed. I'm not really enjoying NaBlowhatsitwhatsit this go round. I don't think I was reading this many blogs this time last year. So, I apologize. I'm not ignoring you...well, I am, sort of. *sigh* Reading blogs shouldn't be this much pressure. And I know people aren't commenting on my blog as much (although that could be the dire content recently), so it's not just me. Are all of you feeling as panicked as me or am I just a freak? Don't answer that.
I had to get a tooth pulled on the day before Thanksgiving. Holy fuck. It kills. And I have this taste in my mouth that is just vile. VILE. Like rotting flesh vile, constantly draining down the back of my throat. It's Dis. Gus. Ting. Yesterday, I looked like I'd been beaten - my eye was puffed half shut and my cheek...Well, I could have been this guy's sister:
I can't believe I had to get a tooth pulled. Well, I mean, I can because I've been babying this damned tooth for a year or two now. It had a huge filling in it and I knew a bit of it had fallen out, so I bought the stuff you get at the pharmacy, the stuff you're supposed to use until you can get to a dentist. Only I didn't go to the dentist because we don't have dental insurance and if it was pay the mortgage or fix my tooth, well, we paid the mortgage. I kept packing the tooth with the filling stuff and every so often, more real filling would fall out. About six months ago, the whole thing fell out. So, I packed the entire hole in my tooth; and it was sizable - the tooth was more filling than tooth. But finally it abscessed. And it hurt like hell. I finally was forced to the dentist's two weeks ago and she charged me $98 to take an x-ray and tell me the tooth was not really salvageable. No shit, Sherlock.
My options were to get a root canal and a crown, to get an implant or to get it pulled. A root canal and implant? $3,100. An implant? $2,980. Pulling the tooth? $153. So, no tooth. And I feel old and kind of like a female Cletus. It's really bothering me, really bumming me out.
And it really fucking hurts.