I don't really like people. One on one, some of them are fine. The few, select elite I've allowed in are all great. Lovely people, really. But en masse? They suck.
Today, a woman at work told me to shut up. She was trying to redeem a gift card issued by the mall and it wouldn't work. She called the company that issued the card and came back to me to tell me what they'd said. When I said "Right, ok, I get it," in the middle of her sentence, she said "Would you shut up and listen to me?" I was interrupting her, I suppose, but mostly I was agreeing with her and indicating that I understood what she wanted. Shut up was a bit unnecessary. She bitched and moaned because I couldn't do anything to fix her card. I felt like saying "Lady, we didn't issue the fucking card, I CAN'T do anything about it, so take your spray-tanned, fake-nailed, snot-nosed self out of my face." But I didn't.
Most of the time, people at work are just irritating, but when they do things like that, or when they throw their money at me or throw their purchases at me or talk on the fucking PHONE instead of paying for their stuff, I have all I can do to not start screaming obscenities at them. I turn my head and roll my eyes. A lot.
I try my best to be helpful at work. I answer questions for people who interrupt me when I'm dealing with another customer, I point people in the right direction when they're looking for a certain item or department, I give my opinion on things when they ask, I even smile (and I am not a smiling kind of person). Most of the time, people are grateful and friendly and nice. But there are always some who think that because I work in retail, I must be dumber than a box of rocks and don't deserve to be treated with even a modicum of respect or decency. Those people ruin it for me.
I think I'd be better suited at being a hermit. Cranky misanthrope seems to be my ideal right now. I'm good at it. I rock the snarky aside and the biting comment. But that doesn't really fly when you work retail and somehow I don't see that being a real selling point on a resume.
So for now, I'm going to practice my smiling and attempt to fix this hole I've bitten in my tongue.