Wednesday, September 02, 2009

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I really think it's time I stopped drinking. I'm not sure how to do this, but I need to, before I turn into a raging alcoholic rather than the functioning one I seem to have become.

I'm not sure how I'm going to do this, I just know I need to and it's scaring the shit out of me.

24 comments:

Audrey at Barking Mad! said...

Know that I love you for this. I am here when you need someone to listen. It takes a woman of incredible strength to open up about something like this, and you are that woman!

Jaimie said...

much respect for posting this...know that we are here for you to vent, cuss, cry ... Hugs! one day at time, one moment at a time...

Chris said...

I've heard that admitting that there is a problem is the toughest step.

Good luck. We're all pulling for you.

Opinionated Gifts said...

That you feel that way is a clear indication that you are right. Good for you.

It sounds like you are very unhappy about a lot of things, and that's never really a good state of mind for drinking.

So good for you for coming to that conclusion and sharing it. Pat yourself on the back.

~*~K.A.T~*~ said...

I wish you the best of luck. I'm very proud that you've been able to see that you have a problem with drinking. I wish my husband would. Anyways, much luck to you and I'm here if you need a friend.

Christina said...

You've had a rough time lately. I can see how something like this could have snuck up on you. It could sneak up on any of us, given the right circumstances.

But admitting it is a good first step, and you're incredibly strong to admit something like this to the entire world. You'll beat it. I know you can do it. And we're here to support you.

LauraJ said...

It's a painful smack in the head when we realize using alcohol to get us through life isn't always the best option. I've battled the alcohol demon for 20 years. Some years are better than others.

Big hugs!!!

Stephi said...

Best advice I can give, having been down that road, is to try to occupy that time space with something else. Avoid liquor stores and the like, let everyone you know that you're dealing with trying to correct this, ask them to avoid while around you, and to not enable you. If they're a good friend they won't have a problem with doing so. Distraction is key. Keeping yourself busy goes a long way to help with it.

Its a VERY tough road, but is easier with a good support system. Maybe looking up a local Friends of Bill W group can also help (AA).

You can do this, just take it one step at a time. <3

Mad Woman said...

I've been through this myself and many many many kudos to you for admitting that there is even an inkling of a problem. A functioning alcoholic (which I was) is still as much an alcoholic as a raging one. It's just less noticeable to people outside.

We are all here if you need to chat, vent, scream or sob. You can do this. It'll be a hard road, but there are lots of people to support you...here at least.

Green-Eyed Momster said...

I'm sending you an email. Please know that I'm only trying to help!

Hugs and love,
GEM

Lara said...

YOU CAN DO IT! Go you, you rock. Seriously. :)

ninnifur said...

you can do anything you set your mind to! I'm rooting for you and we are all here for you!

Lisa said...

Looks like you're on the right path. Hoping that you can overcome this!

Magpie said...

Be well.

Fairly Odd Mother said...

Thinking of you & wishing you the best. Hugs.

Anonymous said...

Find an AA meeting nearby. Sometimes you can bring your children and they will have child care there. A friend told me she was raised going to AA meetings with her mother. She told our class about the book Perfect Daughters: Adult Daughters of Alcoholics which you may relate to if your mother had a similar issue. Good luck. You're worth taking care of yourself. I've followed your blog for years and would love to meet you in person one day.

Shannon said...

I had a bunch of months a couple of years ago where I drank every day and took "happy pills" if I wasn't having a drink. Whatever I needed to do to come down from a stressful day of parenthood, I did it.

If it's scaring you, then definitely stop. It's not something that should cause anxiety for you.

Audrey at Barking Mad! said...

Just wanted to stop back by (because I was too lazy to open an email) and let you know you've been on my mind a lot lately. Hope things are going well and that you're hanging in there!

Sysy Morales said...

Its cool how open and honest you are. You say what many others may be thinking. I used to say what you say now. Somehow I turned things around...and am now happy and in control of the diabetes...not to mention I quit my drinking (I at one point downed a bottle of champagne a day) Here is my site full of helpful info-stop by :) www.thegirlsguidetodiabetes.com

thatgirlblogs said...

you can.

Anonymous said...

J, update please... Kat

Jay Andrew Allen said...

Hope you're doing well. I've been there. It can be hard to do, but you'll feel so much better on the other side. Keep the faith.

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Bernard said...

How's it going? Please let me know if I can do anything to help.