Monday, October 13, 2008

Crazy

So I'm starting to think this job at Big Box Store was not such a great idea. I didn't realize how deep my misanthropic curmudgeon streak ran until I started having to interact with the public on a regular basis.

I got a job to make a little extra money and to get away from the kids and the house a couple of times a week. However, most of my time at work is spent listening to children scream and holler and whine. Also? Folding towels? Not really all that fun. Picking up aisles of crap, Halloween costumes and clothing and food - not really all that fun. And people are slobs. Lazy, lazy slobs. I spent two and a half hours last night cleaning up the Halloween section. Costumes were ripped out of their packaging and left strewn from one end of the aisle to the other. I wound up having to trash two carts full of costumes because pieces were missing or ripped. The complete and utter disregard that people have for the store's property is astounding. The pinnacle of this was reached yesterday, when someone took a shit all over a bathroom stall. All over the floor, on the toilet and even on the walls. Thank god I wasn't the one who had to clean it up. The poor manager had to do it and she was not happy about it. I don't want to have to deal with that. Not for $8 an hour.

One of the managers told me that she really likes me and asks for me specifically to go do things like fold towels and clean up aisles of stuff because I'm smart and I'm good at it. Which, y'know, nice, but I feel like such a loser, which then makes me feel guilty for feeling that way. Why do I find it so demeaning to work there? Why am I absolutely mortified every time I see anyone I know come thru my lane? I want to crawl into a hole and die. Am I really that much of a snob? Apparently so. Lovely.

I don't know where I'm going with this post. Aimless rambling seems to be my specialty lately. I just know that I don't like this job all that much and I can't even stand the thought of having to work there thru the holidays. I've been looking for another job, full-time if it pays enough to cover the exorbitent cost of putting two kids into daycare, or part-time in the evenings if it doesn't involve having to deal with the public for too long. Those requirements are even tougher to meet than the full-time/daycare thing.

I just wish I could figure out what would make me happy. I can't seem to nail that one down and it's really not a pleasant way to live.

9 comments:

Lyrehca said...

Well, you're a reader, right? Would it be easier working at a Barnes & Noble, rather than Target? If there's a Target nearby, is B&N far away?

At least your boss thinks you're smart. And think of how great it is to get your paycheck every other week.

Ms Picket To You said...

or work at the Borders night-shift. not a lot of people. most of them polite and quiet.

but wtf am i saying? i have been trying to find the "right" job for two years now and have only come up with things i won't do. sometimes i wonder if this i'm-gonna-get-a-job thing is just an empty threat. but i am so freakin' bored most of the time at home so what to do? what to do?

boy, that was helpful.

Ree said...

"what do I want to be when I grow up?"

Honey, I keep asking myself that, and I supposedly have a "career" and "title" and "success" whatever the F*ck that means.

I'll listen to your ramblings anyday.

Fairly Odd Mother said...

I'd beeline to a bookstore or a store for older women, like Chicos. Don't like the clothes, but, heck, there won't be a ton of kids in there, and at least you hope no one is shitting in the dressing room.

Retail is really, really hard. I once worked as a receptionist and data entry person for a nursing home. The people were sweet, I got to sit the entire time, and they needed people at night to cover the phones and do paperwork. Try a professional agency or temp agency---they may have some office jobs or places that need evening coverage. Some may even turn into longer-term projects.

elizasmom said...

Sweet fancy moses, that bathroom story is HORRIBLE! What is the deal with bathrooms at that store? Why do people befoul them so? I have been desperate enough a few times to actually go in, but I always end up changing my mind and just holding it instead. :Shudder:

And I promise to never EVER use your lane. Even though I do not think you are a loser at all.

Anonymous said...

Try temporary agencies..working in an office - as a legal secretary you'll make much more money and they will value your intelligence. They'll ask you to proof read - and if it's white color crimninal law some of it reads better than fiction; people are diabolical.

crazymumma said...

You are not rambling you are folding towels in your head trying to figure it all out.

I am sorry you feel so lousy about the job. How rare is it for any of us to have something that makes us truly happy.

Tell me where you are and I will come thru your lane and drag you off for an evening of revelry.

Traceytreasure said...

Ditto! Everything you just said! Aren't people amazing? I had no idea that people were so careless and rude until I started having to clean up their messes and fix the store after they let their kids DESTROY IT!
I don't know why you would be embarassed when people you know came through your line, though. These are tough times and people have to work. I think we should both work at Barnes and Noble. I hate mall hours though. I'm staying put for now. I do have Lottery tickets so wish me luck! I'll share!!

Hugs!!

Rich said...

seasonal was a bitch. It sucked major fucking ass.you were right: :Who The Fuck Wants To Be Burger King"