Tuesday, December 09, 2008

Things I Shouldn't Do Late At Night

Listen to Sarah McLachlan's Surfacing after having a few drinks.

Try to read about depression.


I was on the phone with a friend last night, talking to her about my marriage and my depression and was saying that I didn't know if my marriage was affecting my depression or if my depression was affecting my marriage. She said that was a total mindfuck. It didn't really hit me until today, but I think she's right. Maybe it's not him, maybe it's just the depression and maybe I should just back the fuck off for a little bit.


Green-Eyed Momster said...

I really wish I could take it all away....
I've been there.
I was just depressed last week. It comes in waves with me.
I wish I was more help.
If I win the Lottery, we'll go on a spiritual journey some place warm, okay?
Send me a note if you want the list of remedies (homeopathy) that get me through those tough waves.

Big hugs and love, T

Jess said...

Sarah has a song for every mood, doesn't she?

She's haunting and lovely. Or is that hauntingly lovely? No matter.

I am always up. Or I can be.
Don't hesitate.

Unknown said...

I hope that the answers you seek find you.

rae ann said...


sorry, friend. i wish i had words, but alas, i live in a similar world as you right now.

now sarah, what's up with the hands?! driving me nuts!

Anonymous said...


I think it's "damned if you do, damned if you don't" type of thing. I don't think I'm depressed (at least not diagnosed as such), but there's definitely a correlation between how I wake up and how much I want to stay married.

Mike said...

I wish I had something intelligent to say to you about this. I've haven't had "major depression" yet. But then again I have three teenagers who may push me over the edge soon.

I do know what it is to question your marriage though. I know it's cliche but sometimes you need to go back and remember why you got together in the beginning...

Good luck, pray for you...

Anonymous said...

I fell ya! I make the mistake of having a few cocktails and then trying to convince my husband to just "let me look at the baby". Of course then I turn into the typical crying drunk because I love my son so much, then I'm pissed at myself for being a loser and trying to drink away the anger and sadness, and it's just never ending. for me. I hope not for you.
I went through a super bad depression pahse two years ago. It was no fun. And what made it worse is that my husband kept saying things like "what's your problem?!" Are you serious?! That doesn't help any, bu thanks dick-wad! I hope that some day soon you will find something that will make you see the opposite of depression. I know it's hard to fight it without taking anything, but you can prevail!

Anonymous said...

Handle the depression and then you can have clarity on it all!!! (I know, easier said than done). I love Sarah McLachlan. But it can be sad music sometimes. J and I learned "Angel" over the summer for a woman who frequented the piano bar and asked me if I could sing it. He plays it, I sing it and he chimes in at the end. She is in tears every time we do it. (but she requests it, so....)