I'm all over the place about whether to go to BlogHer or not. It's going to be pricey, especially if I try to do it without a roommate (which, really, I'd rather not do - as much as I like my solitude, a conference like that would be more fun with a roommate or two).
Mostly it's the whole "Will anyone talk to me" bullshit that I get all freaked out over when I start thinking about it too much. I am such a pile of nerves over this that it's ridiculous. It's the main thing holding me back. I worry so much about whether anyone will even know who the hell I am - this is definitely NOT an A-list blog. I'm not even sure it's an E-list blog.
So I dither and I worry and I freak myself out about 10 times a day over this.
Why am I such an idiot about these things? Do other people do this or am I really the freak I think I am? I feel like I'm about to attempt to infiltrate the cool kids table while carrying my big, nerdy pile of books, glasses askew and wearing last year's fashion.
Dither, dither, dither.
Could this post get any more navel-gazey?
ETA: I found a ticket for $118 round trip ($167 with all the taxes and fees), so I booked it. Lordamighty, what have I signed myself up for?
Anyone need a roommate? I don't bite. I might correct your grammar, though.